I should be thankful and grateful that you came home to
fuck and not cheat?
So I should just be grateful ha?
Ignore the stank of
Ignore that its 4 am ha?
quickie you said instead you left now 2 hours later!
Ignore the fact I had to get up put our baby to bed more than 3 times
Ignore I had to change diapers
Don’t blame it on the
You are not worthy of me
And I refuse I refuse to blame me
Sex is painful Sex with you is awful
I did it for the peace
Had I said No
We would fight
No, you would get angry
And I don’t want my baby to witness your anger
You chose to leave
I need space and to think you said
Yet so afraid another may come, boy
When I am still wearing your ring?
Not in hope of reconciliation but I am wearing it as protection
As an armor
I swear on the universe I’m done
Men and their painful stick
Do you think you can please me with your
When you can’t even see the tension and horror in my body
I even said to myself
wiggle let him finish quick and get off
But nooo Mr
booze makes you sleepy, doesn’t it?
Do I look like a California king bed?
Do I hear you snore while you refuse to get off?
I curse the broken pieces in me
I curse the demon that took away my NO
At a young age
I curse the feet that run to take away the Nos of innocent children
That turns them into broken adults
A curse upon you and curse upon me for not standing up for myself
This is an old piece ~ a throwback here is to many more years of healing from traumas so we don’t recreate them! 🌻